Stiiiiick.

I'm just a little bit pissed off at myself right now. I don't know if the correct way to say it is "I take pride" but, I guess I really put a lot of emphasis? or VALUE, that's it, in helping people out. Without thinking, considering it, etc. Just doing it. And today I had opportunities to do that, and I didn't. I'm having a social anxiety kind of day, but really I should have. Ok, self-beating over.

P.s. I'm going to try to start blogging more as a daily thing..and maybe not always so melancholy. "Try" being the key word here. =)

Gains and Losses

I have a burdensome heart. It's hard to leave people behind. Especially when you both know how sad it is. It's easier I think to leave things where they ended badly, and then just have that time as space between you. But then again, I think it's worth the little bit of rekindled ache to eventually allow a person forgiveness and the peace of knowing theres not anger in that space anymore, just sadness. Sometimes the person is still worth it I guess, even with everything piled on top. Still hurts anyhow.
And time and memory continues..